Failure

Last month I had a photo shoot up in North Houston. I had met with the client beforehand, we had cooked up some interesting ideas for the shoot. Come the day of the shoot I went up to the Woodlands a few hours early to scout out the locations where we would shoot. Everything was perfect. Until...

I failed. Completely. 

Five minutes before my client was supposed to arrive at our first location is when it fell apart. I was sitting at a stoplight and checked my side mirror. Smoke was pouring from my left rear wheel well. I mean POURING. In all honesty I thought my car was about to catch on fire. I pulled into a parking lot and waited for the smoke to stop. Thankfully (I later learned) the only thing that caused was a small leak in my brake lines. Liquid on hot metal = smoke apparently. I never recovered though. The thought of my car on fire shook me and I wasn't mentally there during my shoot. 


So how did I fail? I mean, the car didn't turn into a flameball so I was able to do the shoot after all, and we even got some decent photos. I didn't shoot to the best of my abilities. I stayed in my comfort zone. I didn't push myself. 

After the shoot I was going through the photos with a fellow photographer and she told me "These photos aren't you. If I saw these among other peoples photos I couldn't tell they were yours. Daniela's photos you rocked. You owned that. Not this." This is in my opinion a bigger fail than making bad photos. Making 'good' photos that are made without trying isn't enough. If I wanted to do that every photo I take would be shallow DOF and natural, north-facing light. That produces 'nice' looking photos, clients love it, and everybody is happy. No. Just no. [do note: there a few people Like Jasmine Star who can pull that off well as their 'look', but I assure those people are few and VERY far between AND while Jasmine does that as her look, she also has fashion influences in her photos which adds another dimension that most others just don't have that.] I should be giving my all to every shoot. Good photos or bad as the result, I should always be pushing myself. I didn't. I failed.  


Thankfully, this was only half of my shoot with this kid. The second part we are still working on scheduling, and that, oh are we gonna rock that. So until then.....

The second, and successful, part of my shooting with Hunter can be seen here...